skate journal: early morning parking garage motivation/depression struggles (dec 11, 2016 day 341)
I’m not sure what happened after I got home Saturday night, but I got insanely depressed. Something about alcohol wearing off, starving and the fact that I hardly landed anything really messed me up. I could hardly sleep. It sucked. I figured I should get my skating out of the way so I could hang with the family the rest of the day. But man, I was super depressed, I could feel it like I got kicked in the head. I went to Red Curbs wanting to just do a few grinds, but there was a few cars near the curbs so I avoided it. Went to a garage with a yellow curb, but left because the incredibly rough finish on the concrete just didn’t appeal to me. Plus they had just repainted the concrete and I wasn’t in the mood to ruin the paint job. I tried another garage too. Ugh, the one under the asian deli and it was super smooth, but covered in debris and seemed like it would cave in at any moment. So I ended up at the spot in the photos, aka Redder Curbs (because the curbs are more red then Red Curbs). I started with a slappy crooks up the kinked part and kind of rolled my ankle not coming out right. Ugh, this day. It got better though. I skated somewhat hard. I never skated great, but I did do a few things that lightened the fog in my head a little. I mostly went between slappy crooks up the kink to backside slappy on a parking block, or frontside slappy the parking block to start then front 50 before the kink then flail a nollie frontside flip. Then tried some lines of back 180 a parking block, fakie flip, switch slappy crooks (never got it). Did a lot of slow back 50s on the kinked curb. Did a few 360 flips with the hands down. Hucked a few switch tres. Did front 50 back 180 on the median over the blocks. Tried switch front tails for awhile and kind of got one. Seems somewhat doable to keep trying it. Couldn’t land a heelflip to save my life. At the end I messes around with a dorky little nollie shove to noseslide. I didn’t get any to slide, but it seems like another one try work on. I left feeling a little better about myself.
(setup 8.38 Null Riley deck, Venture 5.8s, Venom 88a bushing , old 52mm Spitfire F4 99a classic shape wheels, washers outside, swiss bearings, NB# PJ 533 maple/black)