{"id":3100,"date":"2011-01-20T00:36:15","date_gmt":"2011-01-20T00:36:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/nullozinejr.com\/zine\/?p=3100"},"modified":"2011-01-20T00:36:15","modified_gmt":"2011-01-20T00:36:15","slug":"skate-journal-january-depression-jan-18-2011","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.nullozinejr.com\/zine\/2011\/01\/20\/skate-journal-january-depression-jan-18-2011\/","title":{"rendered":"skate journal: January depression (Jan 18, 2011)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Had a decent day at work.  Fell asleep on the couch after dinner, then woke up and tossed a nerf football around with Ollie.  My legs felt great.  It was nice outside.  I went skating around 9.  Campus again.  This time I decided to push faster down the little hill from where I parked.  I started doing some little crack ollies then SLAM.  Right on my left elbow and hip.  Elbow starts bleeding again.  Great, I gotta remember to bandage that up before Liz gets mad at me again for bleeding all over the sheets.  Anwyays, it didn&#8217;t bum me out that much.  I ended up at the little median by the rec center.  I felt decent still.  It&#8217;s only about two feet long so I don&#8217;t know if you can actually count what I did as &#8220;manuals&#8221;, but I did manny, manny front 180, sw 180 manny, fs 180 nose manny, nose manny and a halfcab manny.  I moved on, feeling better than last night, but still a weird feeling in my head which I guess is depression.  I ended up at the little ledge drop thing behind the Library I tried to ollie a bunch when I was with Fuzz, Bernie, Greg, Jake and Ollie.  I almost didn&#8217;t try to ollie it, but reminded myself I&#8217;m not supposed to back away from ollies I can do anymore.  I landed it.  I moved on and before long was behind the student center.  I decided on trying a line ending at the ledge with the low handrail next to it (as the ledge gets longer the rail gets lower).  This is where it went south.  I tried to start with kickflip up the curb.  I couldn&#8217;t do it.  When I finally did it I tried to follow it up with a no comply 180, then f\/s halfcab, then ollie onto the ledge and who knows what on the handrail.  I doubted that I would actually commit to anything, but I thought it would be fun trying.  WRONG.  I could not ollie up the stupid ledge.  It&#8217;s got a downhill approach with cracks, but still.  I started questioning how the hell I could suck at skateboarding so bad.  Instead of leaving my dumb ass kept trying it and getting more and more bummed.  I almost left the spot walking and leaving my board behind.  Instead I pushed mostly to the car.  I went home so depressed.  Luckily I am married to an amazing woman though and she did her best to cheer me up.  It may have worked, but I don&#8217;t plan on skating for a few days.  I have no idea how I could possibly have skated 312 days last year.  I had entertained thoughts of going for it again as I&#8217;ve only missed a few days so far.  No.  Never again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Had a decent day at work. Fell asleep on the couch after dinner, then woke up and tossed a nerf football around with Ollie. My legs felt great. It was nice outside. I went skating around 9. Campus again. This time I decided to push faster down the little hill from where I parked. 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